Why is attaining a sense of normalcy so hard? I do so much to maintain my sanity such as a daily handful of medications, supplements, weekly sessions of cognitive behavior therapy, monthly sessions of electroshock therapy, going to the gym at least 3-4 days out of the week, and seeing my psychiatrist bimonthly.
Even with all this, my symptoms have only gotten somewhat better and that's me being optimistic. I realize I'm not the only one going through so much pain and suffering because of mental diseases and disorders. That's why I want to study neuroscience and biomedical engineering/technology to try to somewhat alleviate the suffering of millions.
Perhaps this is just a delusion of grandeur due to my schizophrenic symptoms but I submit to you, everyone reading this, that I will try my best and dedicate my life to pursuing this dream.